No, I could never be mad at her. Growing up, there was always that piece of my heart that was missing, but I always knew I was adopted, so I had dreamed of it being filled one day. I knew she was out there somewhere. It was really hard for her to do it, but she did the best thing for me. Of course I know her now, and she’s an absolutely amazing person, I’ve found I trust her more than anyone else in the world. And yes, I do imagine what it would have been like if she hadn’t done it. But like I said, it was what was best for me.

I admire you for making this decision, it must be such a challenge. But for whatever reasons you can’t take care of this baby, you’re doing the right thing. You’ve giving the gift of life to a family who might not have been able to have children if it wasn’t for you. 

I look at it this way, for my own situation. My adoptive mother is infertile and tried for years and years and spend so much time in hospitals with my adoptive father trying to get pregnant. And every time she did, she lost the baby. But then along came Faith (my birth mother) who gave me up to these two people who wanted a baby more than anything in the world. I feel like I was supposed to end up with them. It was God’s plan all along.

You always have options with this adoption, whether it be open or closed. I can’t tell you it will be easy, and I can’t imagine what it feels like. But do what feels best. You have a mother’s instinct now. And someday you and your baby can reunite.

Thank you so much! <3 I’m so proud of you, it must have taken so much strength and courage to give up your child, but know that it will come back around to you some day. Please submit to The Adoption Blog!