LOOK WHAT FAITH GOT ME FOR MY BIRTHDAY.
asdfghjkl I’ve wanted this for so long, like a solid sixteen months.
AHHH IT’S SO PERFECT.
and the note is getting hung up on my wall next to my bed. It makes me really happy. ^__^
It’s hard to see, but Faith is holding baby Jordan, and AJ wanted to get in on the cuddling.
He casually sat beside her and just started leaning over.
^__^
This baby… This family… Changed everything.
Whenever I think of just giving up and ending everything, I think of my three little princes. I don’t want Jordan growing up without knowing his big sister. It would break my heart if any of them ever went through a hard time and thought “well if my big sister can give up, why can’t I?”
All this time I had this empty space… I wanted to feel loved. I wanted to fall in love. God works in mysterious ways.
I am so in love with my boys and the rest of my incredible family.
They saved my life and someday I’m going to tell them this story.
I saw this last night and almost cried. She’s so amazing. Words can’t even describe how much I love her. ^__^
So this is probably the cutest thing I’ve ever seen in my entire life.
I brought the baby blanket home from the hospital for AJ. (Faith isn’t coming home until tomorrow and he’s been sad without her for almost four days) So I held it up to his nose so he could smell it and then I laid it down next to him and he moved and put his head on it and fell asleep.
asdfghjkl;
two of the loves of my life.
I never knew it was possible for me to fall in love this much.
Pictures to follow.
we’ve written it out on poster board.
It’s gonna be one hell of a summer!!!!
Apples.
Hey Faith remember when you felt left out of our inside fruit jokes so you started saying random fruits to Vern and he was just like wtf. “hey vern!!!! PAPAYA.”
Remember that time my hair was red, hot pink, and a “splash” of blonde?
I do miss my red hair though… Maybe I’ll color it again…
Little collage of Faith and me.
Are we twins yet orrrrrrrr
Look what I found! Faith’s senior picture!
^___^ she’s beautiful.
Is it weird for me to say that?
When I say “I love you” to her, I feel like it’s not enough.
It doesn’t explain how I feel. It doesn’t demonstrate the emotions I get when I think about her, when I look at pictures of her, when I hear her voice, when I see her radiating smile, when I see her gorgeous, glistening eyes.
I look at pictures of her constantly, and something goes off inside me. That feeling I get when I know I love someone with all my heart has. It’s that feeling that makes me want to cry and laugh at the same time, because she’s just so beautiful and wonderful and amazing. I look at pictures of her and sigh, and think ”I’m so lucky” and all I want to do is hug her and never let go.
I’ve never felt like this about anyone else before. I’ve never felt a love like this from anyone else before. Maybe it’s because I grew up with that “empty” feeling, and ever since I met her, she’s filled it.
I love you, Faith.
