I AM SO FUCKING SICK OF THIS.
SO SO SO SO SO SICK OF IT.
Stop fucking blaming all of this on me when YOU’RE THE ONE PUSHING ME AWAY.
It’s like you WANT me to walk out of your life.
I don’t know why this is hitting me.
I guess I’m just good at bottling it up.
And now I want to cry now.
I’m gonna go make cookies and watch movies and snuggle with my teddybear.
I can’t take this anymore.
There aren’t any words to describe how much this hurts.
Everyone says it’s only temporary.
…I can’t do this…
I don’t know what I’m supposed to believe. All I know is this is killing me and I hate the way this feels.
Why can’t you just be straight up with me?
that’s really all I can say.
I deserve better than this; why can’t I prove that to myself?
I’m going to give up on you.
I don’t want to, but I can’t keep pretending anymore.
If you want me in your life, fight for me… prove it to me; otherwise, have a great life.